i miss you like crazy, but i dunno what to do about it.

“it doesn’t make any sense, that’s why I trust it”

At Korean language class ytd, 선생님 asked,
“여기기, what kind of guys would you like to meet ?”

“마음이 넓은 남자 만나고 싶어요.” (broad minded guy)

He laughed, and said “eeee you are  Babo (foolish)!!! When you get older, you will want to meet rich guys. Most Korean girls only wanna marry rich guys…”

Does that mean “no money, no happiness”? I’m still too young to understand this but that’s what many people have been telling me.
Really? Can’t there be any exception at all? That’s saddening.

You know how everyone says I always fall for “bad” guys…I knew this but nobody can control their hearts, can they?

Since I’m still young, let me love whoever I want now. I don’t give a shit about his wealth, education level and all the restrictions that society expects. Let me love him solely for who he is. Let me do whatever I like before I surrender my rightful freedom to reality. Let me be me.

Please let me not have any regrets when I get old, let me look back at my teenage years decades later and smile at all the bold and crazy decisions that makes life worth living.

Somebody once told me that, “A hungry girl is an angsty girl.”

Maybe i need something to eat now…Hadn’t eaten much today due to my wisdom tooth extraction wound which is still hurting.

Like i mentioned on Twitter, i am once again amazed by the power of anesthetic aka pain killer. I think it’s quite amazing that i didn’t feel any pain at all when the dentist cut my gum open, broke my tooth into 5 portions, pulled the pieces out one by one and stitched my gum back again.

One of the studies shows that emotional pain hurts just as much as physical pain. Now I wish there’s anesthetic for emotional pain. If that’s the case, i’ll be spamming pain killer every day. Sometimes it really feels as though your heart is being slit open by knife, thanks to the fucked up events that are happening in my life right now. T.T

I need an escape. That’s part of the reasons i bought the air ticket to Korea in the first place.

<3

I love Maria tan, xc, sc and wandong forever. No need words. six years in boarding school, we lived and held on to each other like family.

though I have many other good/close friends, these 4 are above everyone else. follow by my bros. Hehe.

Practicing my tolerance of not talking to people I badly miss.

바보오빠, 고마워요

Strange. Good things keep happening since I put that necklace on, or so I believe.